About my dominant personality, since I was a kid I use to have fantasies and tendencies related to BDSM, even if I did not know a thing about it.
At the beginning, I was reading and found the existence of BDSM, what was that and its implications.
I passed alone through the process of self discovering and aceptation, and after that, I made the decision of have this as a part of my life.
I searched virtual communities, and one night I decided joining one, my hands was shaking, the fear and the adrenalin rush have being unforgettable till now. With my inexperience and lack of knowledge, I was near to go inside a place I did know will change my life and the way I saw and understood the world.
I did more researching, learned more and at the end my firs experience was virtual.
I found everything about it super erotic, stimulating and fulfilling: from to have a man following my orders steep by steep and enjoying to be submitted, through the fact that virtual Domination becomes like customize interactive pornography.
In addition, anonymity and the power got Me (and still giving Me) for Me hiding my image but for my sub showing himself, was being and incredible experience.
However, maybe because wasn’t too young when this begun, I was 37 years old, and I had internalized certain way of be on a relationship, I’m not very good with casual sex with an stranger I don’t gonna see ever again… I actually get involve with my subs, I care about they, I know they, I really appreciate what they give Me, including virtual subs.
That’s why I got rally affected when two subs in two different moments just stop to communicate… I didn’t know if they were dead or alive, or just get bored and went out…
Yes, the double-edged sword… because of that, I made the decision not to pass through the worry and pain again. So, even if I like virtual Domination very much, I don’t gonna do it with a sub I can’t have in real life.
Ama Ashtart 